Thursday, January 05, 2012

Back again

It's been a while. You see my thoughts and attention have been elsewhere:
My Dad was diagnosed with an aggressive form of brain cancer in early June. Sadly he passed away in late August. It's been a devastating blow to our family and I'm having a hard time coming to terms with it. I am thankful though that my managers supported me working remotely so that I could be there with Dad, and my family.

I can't tell you the amount of times I've tried to write this post. To explain what's been going on these last few months. I'd start by writing it all down. Then I delete it. Writing it down seems to help. But it has been an extremely upsetting and difficult few months. Truly you don't need to read about it in all its gory detail.

I've also been thinking about all the wonderful things I'd want you to know about my Dad. He was an amazing man. (Naturally, I'm biased :) Instead I'll be pouring all those details into the stories that I share with Naomi so that she learns about her Grandad.

What I will share is that both my Mum and Dad always encouraged us to do what made us happy. Dad was avid about his hobbies - he was an extremely talented musician who played in local bands and was a well-respected music teacher in his spare time. He also loved computers and was the one who got me started with this blog. I think he'd like that I was back blogging again about the things that I love! So, I'm back. And I'm looking forward to re-connecting with you and sharing the fun things that I'm working on.

Here's a pic of my Dad, Mum and I taken at my brother's wedding the previous year.

So, moving forward, I have lots to share. Including this short poem that Mum sent to me today. I'd like wish you the very best for 2012 and look forward to getting back in touch.

May your troubles be less,

Your blessings be more,

And nothing but happiness come through your door.

Sam xxx


Denise said...

I'm sorry to hear about your Dad, I lost my Dad to Lung Cancer just a few months after I moved to the US, thankfully I got to fly home and be with him for the last month. But it was in October, and Christmas that year was just not the same.
I hope this year will be a good one for you and the memories you have keep you strong.

Bea said...

So sorry to hear this! Sending you a hug.

seashoreknits said...

Dear Sam:
I was so sorry to hear of the loss of your dear Father.
Of course you are still having a very hard time - and the fact that you wanted to make the effort to come back to your blog shows us how much you loved your Dad. It is a connection to him, right? It is good to hear your voice again. Hugs and much sympathy to you and your family.

P.S. the photograph of you and your parents is so beautiful.

dclulu on ravelry said...

Oh, I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. My father died of esophageal cancer nearly 8 years ago and I still miss him every day -- but it has gotten easier. I'm a stranger to you, but believe me when I tell you that you will feel better. Grief is very powerful and long lasting, so be easy on yourself.